Alysia

Alysia
We used to nickname her pumpkin when she was younger

Friday, April 12, 2013

Follow up post

Grief doesn't end in one year, over 20 months later and I still cry almost every day for Alysia.  However, I want anyone who finds this blog to know that somehow life does go on. If you're curious to know how I am doing now, I have a  new blog.  It is new as of the date I write this but you will see that I still grieve my beautiful daughter but I also live.  I want to experience joy again, I want to laugh, I want to love and I want to remember Alysia and honor her by living a happy life.

To those who may be experiencing grief now, just know that it will never go away.  The hole will always be there, the tears will always flow but in between those times you will find joy again.  You can love again, you can live again, you can have fun again.  Don't be afraid, you are not dishonoring your loved one by even hoping what I wrote will be true for you some day.  I still experience guilt that I am not crying 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.  I worry I am dishonoring Alysia's life but no...it would be a dishonor to not allow good things to happen, to not allow happy emotions to heal us, to not allow love to fill up some of that void in our hearts.  I don't think Alysia would want me to still be crying over her non-stop.  Sometimes when I do cry, I almost here her saying to me "c'mon it's been almost 2 years, please don't cry for me anymore"

So here is my new blog address.  If you are curious, feel free to stop in and follow me through what currently gives me joy, what currently heals my heart and what currently I am feeling...the good and the sad.

http://simplylusciouslife.blogspot.ca/

Trish

5 comments:

  1. Thank you for this blog. I lost my only child, Juliana, on June 18, 2013. She was a baby, only 8 months, but my soul is lost. It helps to read your experience here. Thank you.

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    1. I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your daughter Juliana. I know your soul is lost and my soul cries for you. I wish there were words that I could say to you to take all your pain away but there aren't. I still grieve my daughter over 2 years later. You can contact me anytime if you just need an ear.

      Hugs and healing thoughts sent your way.

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  2. I too lost my only child - a daughter at 17. She ended her life. Just searching around and I ended here.

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  3. I just lost my beautful diana to an accidental alcohol/scripts death; she lived alone andso wasn't found for two days; my heart is broken and I don't see anything coming my way ever again

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    1. I am so sorry to read this. I understand your feeling of utter despair and hopelessness. I know that my words may mean absolutely nothing at this time but please just take it one second at a time. No more no less. Feel your pain, lie in the darkness, don't run from it, don't hide it. One day a little ray of light will appear. It will hurt but it will give hope. It's been 51/2 years for me and I still cry for Alysia. I miss her so. Know that I am here if you ever want to talk. You can Facebook me anytime. Sending hugs and understanding of your pain and loss. I am so sorry. I truly am.

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Trish